Sobre el luto y la música

Bien, luego de una grave fase de depresión agudizada por las hormonas, un problema grave de negación a la posibilidad de ser feliz y el descubrimiento de que hay muchas cosas que todavía debo de aprender a manejar y superar, he llegado a la conclusion de que ya estoy muy muy vieja, pero todavía tengo algo de tiempo para rectificar el camino y comenzar a buscar mis necesidades.
He encontrado a una cantante que me fascina, es británica y tiene ese maravilloso humor negro de los británicos que siempre me alegra pero a ella la dejaré para otra ocasión.
Hoy solo vengo a colocar mi actual canción preferida, la que me está ayudando a sobrellevar mis problemas actuales y que me da un poco de esperanza en que las cosas no van a salir mal.

Kana Nishino "MAKE UP"

One day, Did the alarm clock go off?
Wake up! Madamada nemui no
Nidone shitai kedo awatete meeru check
Nande kitai?

Mainichi nikka datte “ohayou”
Konai no mou
Tameiki nomikonde kagami ni toikakeru

One day, Did the alarm clock go off?
Wake up! I’m still sleepy
I want to go back to sleep, but I quickly check my emails
Why am I feeling this hope?

Even my daily chores say “good morning”
He won’t be back
I swallow back a sigh and ask myself in the mirror

Kikasete kikasete
Kyou no iro
Kirakira aishadou
Blue na kono koi wo wasuresasete yo

Ochiteru hibi wa mou yameyou
Nemui me kosutte
Sugao egao ni kaeru mahou wo kakeru
Koko kara ga start

Tell me, tell me
Today’s colour
Shiny eyeshadow
Make me forget this blue love

I’ll put an end to these gloomy days
I rub my sleepy eyes
And cast a spell to put a smile on my face
This is just the start

Kagami no mae mikuraberu
Kyou to kinou made no jibun
Nori ga yoku natte kita ki ga shita
Ki no sei?

Okiniiri no music
Keitai ni tsumekonde
Nee, kyou no shadow
Nani iro ni suru?

In front of the mirror, I compare
The person I am today to the person I was yesterday
I feel like things have gotten better
Or is it just my imagination?

I put my favourite music
On my cellphone
Hey, what colour eyeshadow
Should I go for today?

Brush de bokashite
Chiiku wa pinku
Airainaa koime de
Dare no tame ja nai jibun wo migaku “make”

Mada mada watashi ni wa saki ga aru
Namida kakushite
Kagami ni utsuru aozora ni kizuita
Koko kara ga start

I brush it on
Pink for my cheeks
Dark eyeliner
This makeup isn’t for anyone else, it’s to make myself look good

There’s still more to come for me
I hide my tears
I’ve just noticed the blue sky reflected in the mirror
This is just the start

(I want you to smile with me again
One more time, please...I’m still in love)

Mizutamari no kokoro ni
Kimi ga mada sundete
Kumori nochi me ga hareteru uh...

Kikasete kikasete
Kyou no iro
Kirakira aishadou
Blue na kono koi wo wasuresasete yo

You’re still living
In the puddle in my heart
After the clouds come swollen eyes*, uh...

Tell me, tell me
Today’s colour
Shiny eyeshadow
Make me forget this blue love

Ochiteru hibi wa mou yameyou
Nemui me kosutte
Sugao egao ni kaeru mahou wo kakeru
Koko kara ga start

Brush de bokashite
Chiiku wa pinku
Airainaa koime de
Dare no tame ja nai jibun wo migaku “make”

I’ll put an end to these gloomy days
I rub my sleepy eyes
And cast a spell to put a smile on my face
This is just the start

I brush it on
Pink for my cheeks
Dark eyeliner
This makeup isn’t for anyone else, it’s to make myself look good

Mou daijoubu desho? Watashi
Mou nakanai kara
Hitsuyou na no wa best friends to make up
Koko kara ga start

I’m fine now, right?
I won’t cry anymore
All I need are best friends and makeup
This is just the start